::how am i supposed to know?::

if u din tell me, how am i suposed to kno? i cant read ppl mind.. i cant read ur heart..

please.. dont hate me for that..

im too busy rite now,,,

i cant respond to u..

im sorry..

there's a lot of thing i have to think..

serious relationship is not listed right now..

friendship is much better..

take care of me in future.

IM SORRY. thats all i can say.

i dont want to hurt such a gud friend like u..

::thanks for everything::

im glad everything is going to normal...
thanks to certain ppl who stay by my side and support me going thru this hard time...
Rahel, nana.. u r the bestest tat i've ever known.. thanks for the help, everything.. sayang kamu!
wan, thanks for being a very gud listener...=)..
i owe u guys a lot..

::stay single or taken::

shud i accept him or not?
hmm.. headache!
reject or accept?
which 1 better???
he seems a nice guy but i cant trust him....
past experience teach me for not trusting guy so EZ..
but, my friends keep advicing me for accepting him..
truthfully, i dun have a feeling towrds him...
im afraid.. he will toying me after he got me...
urghh-

::Never Say Goodbye::

Masa memula smpai kat sarawak dulu, aku rasa homesick sangat, nak balik uitm sabah, complaining itu inilah, but then, bila dah tiba masa nak balik, susah pula nak tinggalkan...Kawan2 kat cnie suma best2..Menyesal sebab x gunakan masa yang kitorg ada 2 sepenuhnya.. Rndu sngat kat korg tau.. Rndu gelak ngan korg, rndue p summer valley.. Rndue raja ayam penyet, rndue FUNFAIR! rndue naik sampan.. Miss everything! Mungkin kenangan yang kitorg tinggalkan 2 x sehebat mana, tapi it is the most precious time for us! Tak nyesal datang Uitm swak sbb knal kawan2 mcm korg..
Miss the time that we spend together..
Miss the laugh that we share together..
Huu.. hope to see y'll again..
one day..
Malaya bukan besar sngat kan?
Pusing2 jumpa gak..
Mesti rndue kutuk Sir jlob sama2 nanti..hehe.
korang, DONT FORGET US!
friendship, never end.
BFF smpai mati..hikhik.
Nak gak upload suma gambar2 kitorg kat cne tapi lambat sngat...
special note to :
Epul & esah : The first friend that we made there. Ingat g esah ngan epul ar org first bawak kitorg p blakang mulu, then makan kat Rempah Ratus. Lepas 2, dorg pla treat kitorg.. Thnks epul, thanks esah. Tak dapat treat korg balik. Stay the way u are. Nnti kawen, jan lupa jemput kitorg.HEEE..
ili nadirah : Rndue kat mulut kepoh ili!!! mcm mak org.. hehe.. tapi ili best sbb ili sekepala ngan kitorg. Sedi sngat2 tau bila ili hug kitorg hari 2, mcm nak nangis. Tapi malu. Sori kitorg x dapat bagi gift kat ili. esp iana. sori ek. ili jan lupa kitorg, sbb kitorg xkan pnah lupakan ili even ili slalu buli iana.Ingat g x pasal asam boi 2? hehe.. nasib baik ili dah bagi pulg kat iana, kalau x 2 lah gift iana bagi kat ili.Syg ili tau!
Asyraf@acap : Dulu, ingatkan acap ne sombong, first  knal acap pun msa wat pass pajar sbb acap ikut kitorg kuar. Baru find out acap nie funny, gila2, and SAYANG KAWAN (konon la).. barula kitorg rasa mcm berada kat tmpat cndiri sbb acap wat kitorg rasa comfortable. haha. Sebab acap slalu tegur kitorg, 2 la kitorg rasa mcm di terima. Sem depan, x da da dgar trademark syg kawan 2..=) Lysa ckap, acap ne kawan yang protective~~ haha.. maybe sebab masa kat 'jalan tikus' 2h.. acap ckap "suma org pegang tangan"..lalala~..rupanya acap mmg syg kawan.
Wan Giant : SUPERMAN! nama first kitorg bagi kat wan sbb muka wan macam peakon superman 2. clark sumthin arr.. x ingat nama dia, hehe.. wan pun kitorg ingat sombong, tapi bila dah kenal.. waaa... THE MOST SWEETEST GUY WE EVER MET! bukan nak ckap arr, tapi mmg btl.. wan baik sngat ngan suma org, gentlemen.. even heartless sikit.. he.. xdala gurau jek.. Wan mmg syg kawan, sbb 2 la kitorg syg wan!
Aizat : one word only, he fell in love wif lysa.haha!
Deq ai : the youngest-..1990.. uniqe name. tak tau cemana nak spell. Deq ai best sbb deq ai mcm kitorg, suka langgar peraturan. Sebab? "jalan tikus". HEE HEE.. gonna miss u sis.
kalau nak list down everyone mmg banyak sangat, tapi iana x mampu nak list..bkn bermakna tak ingat, tapi terlalu panjang lah post nie nanti. Kitorg syg suma! Mgkin kitorg dah tgalkan uitm swak, tapi knangan kitorg stil ada kan?
FB ada, ym ada.. so x da alasan untuk lost contact.
Iana nak susun sepuluh jari mintak maaf kat korg suma if kitorg ada wat sesiapa terasa, tersalah hati ngan kitorg, yala.. bahasa kitorg x sma, maybe sabahan kasar sikit.. minta maaf k kawan2...
till then, see u soon.
graduation day!

::10 things abt me ^-^

i kinda bored.. actually tired.. My last paper will be this sunday. The most loveable paper, FAR300. I just made this blog for killing time. Just for fun. I wanna thanks for those who willing to read my post. I really2 grateful. I kinda shocked when one of my friend, told my friend that he always read my blog eventho i talk like rubbish. My english is broken everywhere but you guys still want to read my post. THANKS. KAN SAM MIDA!!!
Lately, i had download new korean drama title You're beautiful (minami). The actor is Jang geon sok, park shin hye, hongki FT island, . I really love that drama!! haha- i'll stay up all night just to download the latest episode with eng subtitle. It really2 hard to find wif the eng sub bcuz the drama is still new.
Allrite, back to d main topic. Im bored and im gonna post 10 things abt me. HAHA!! Just for fun.

1) i like k-pop like hell!! they're my life. But i never want to copy their lifestyle. Just like them because they produce a lot of talented entertainer and produce a lot of good drama and movie. Hm Hm. I will LOL everytime i watch Family outing or X-man. They got a lot of hillarious variety show that can make u laugh til u cry!.

2)im a weirdo. sometime. I can be noisy and then quite all of sudden. I always talk to myself. i dont know why. I speak to my teddy bear and my friend tot i was crazy.hmm.. im not.

3)Dont disturb me if i reading a comic, novel, or doing calculation. You will totally ignored by me.

4)I am a simple minded. Im easily satisfied. I can say "yes" without thinking the risky. Sometime dummy.

5)I like guy who can playing any instrument and dancing. They're so seducing for me. hikhik.

6)Im listen to hardcore, emo music somtime. I used to be a fan for this genre. But, i chnged my mind after watched DBSK.totally crazie over them.

7)I really slow abt feeling, and heart. Sometime i cant get it if u din tell me directly. I dun realise I made a mistake until you tell me. I can slipped saying things tht can offended ppl without knowing that it can hurt ppl.

8) i dun like being scolded. I will feel totally a dumbass if u scold me infront of my face.

9) I admire one guy when im 15 and i dont know where he is now. Wish i can see him once and say sorry for what i've done.

10)I just break up a week ago and i dun cry cuz the guy totally arseholl and i hate him. I feel happy for leaving him and i dun see i will be in the relationship for awhile cuz i sick of guy. They nauseate me.

::one week left::

Habis ja paper costing tadi genaplah seminggu saja lagi kami akan tinggal sini.HOHO. Mau balik saba!yeah... Kepala masi dzzy gi nih actually bab x ckup tdo bbrapa hari..aihhh.. rndue my mum so much..
Baca lagi news pasal dbsk. Semakin merisaukan pula keadaan my oppa2... mcm chances dorg akan disband tue semakin tinggi... Nangis woo...
They're my aspiration.
MY role model.
Tiada dorg, x best suda kpop!!!

::footstep::

That day when the sunset,

My footstep took me,

Opening my eyes,

To a place that I thought I had forgotten,

Whether I still have left some hatred towards you,

I really want to be free now,

I believed ..

Time would solve everything,

And I realised that how foolish i am for believing that,

Now, I just want to,

Follow the flow,

And never turn back to you.

I know, from the start that, a person like you

Never existed in my life,

The way I didn’t exist to you,

Remember that, one day you will hurt

As much as I did,

From someone beside me.

You’ll experience the same pain,

Im sorry, this is all I can do,

Really, this all I can be for you,

For that day to come,

When I can fully get over you,

I wish that there is no one cant love you and cant help but hating you,

Im sorry….

::the third day::

hari ne masuk hari ketiga aku tak cari dia langsung. Memang satu rekod la jugak. Sebelum nie paling lama pun aku tak cari dia sehari setengah. Kalau kami busy smpai tak terkontek at least kami ada calling jugak. Last message aku bagi dia, aku cakap " even lepas kita break awak dapat gf baru, belum tentu perempuan tue dapat tahan bercinta dengan awak! terseksa.!" dia x reply satu message dari aku, wpun aku cakap "let's break up cause im tired of this relationship". Jadi, aku assume yang kami dah official break. Aku harap sokongan dari kawan2 aku sbb aku tau apa yang aku wat ne betul. Kawan2 aku slalu ckap, ko takkan ada masa depan dengan lelaki macam 2..Obvious sngat dia layan ko teruk. Apa lagi yang ko harap? mcm perempuan desperate ja. Sebab terpukul dengan kata2 kawan2 aku tue aku tekadkan hati dengan keputusan aku. Takkan aku mau jilat balik ludah aku kan? aku pun ada maruah. Lagipun, selama tiga hari nie, aku x terfikir pun pasal dia. Yg aku ingat every action yang wat aku sakit hati dan nangis. Itu yang membuat aku rasa keputusan yang aku ambik nie betul.Aku akan teruskan dan aku akan janji aku takkan bersedih lagi lepas nie. The past is past and i will move on.
Aku thanks sengat dengan kawan2 aku yang sokong aku and sedarkan aku.Setiap kali aku solat aku dia supaya Allah kuatkan hati aku sebab aku tau DIA akan tolong aku.